Ok, so this is it. I've heard that blogging helps deal with depression. I've heard that blogging can make you depressed. I've been told that I can find kindred spirits here, or get to know new, different, interesting people. I really don't know if this is a good idea. I don't even know if anyone's listening.
Oscar Wilde said: Man is least himself when he talks in his own person. Give him a mask, and he will tell you the truth.
Wise. And it applies so perfectly in today's cyber-world, where you make friends, enemies, love behind a username, a fake id, a fake ego. You can be who you wanna be. Perfect anonymity, the perfect opportunity to reinvent yourself.
Well, yes sir, I use a fake username and an icon, both are not me but express who I am, what I feel. No more masks for me, no more twisting the truth. I will write the truth, all the truth and nothing but the truth. I shall be as savagely true and honest as I can be, hiding behind a made-up name. I shall lay myself as bare as I can handle.
I wish for companions, for understanding. I wish I can feel less "abnormal". Less schizoid. Less...bipolar. I wish that, through this experience, I will finally become one, a whole, and not two different people in one body. Sharing stuff, thoughts, emotions, etc. all helps make sense.
Souls of the Goldhawk Road
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Good Luck with ya blog
ΑπάντησηΔιαγραφήI find it both exhilerating and depressing, so be careful, but I have met some amazing people, Shane at Memoires and Dennis Cooper amoung others, I hope you continnue to follow Two Horses and A Lie, it's a joint effort I have and if you ever wanna join us an author we would be real happy to have you join.
Names Nick btw and Hi.
Hiya Sickie,
ΑπάντησηΔιαγραφήI have to reeat hat Nick sad and add that it is also exhausting. Opening yourself and operating in public is tiring work, yet ultimately helps alot. You'll be surprised just what people will accept and embrace so don't hold back. You're lucky enough to have fallen into one of the most open and freeminded communities that exist here... so get the scalpel, make an incision, pull back the fleshy exterior and expose yourself... I await further posts.
My very best wishes, Shane. x
Nick,
ΑπάντησηΔιαγραφήhi!and thanx.
wow, u've met DC? wow...
yeah, i can tell Shane is an amazing guy, he dropped in to welcome the new kid as you did, and sorry for being such an ass and taking me a week to reply.
i've read some parts of the joint story and it's amazing but unfortunately i kinda lost track so even if i could join you (thanx btw, you're so kind for the invitation) i wouldn't knwo where to start.
thanx again:)
hey shane, hello, and thank you for making me feel welcomed.
ΑπάντησηΔιαγραφήsorry for not replying sooner, i'm an ass.
yeah, i can tell it's going to be all of these things ur both mentioneing and i'm kinda afraid to make an effort because it'll probably fail, the story of my life haha...
I will try to expose me in as many ways as i feel appropriate to, but mostly i hope thru my writing, ooey, that was...sonorous-sounding.
thankx again
hope i see both of u around